Holey Moley! As if it wasn't enough that she had to run off to middle school this year, she had another birthday. Sydney is now 11! I can't believe it! I can't even begin to count the number of things that have changed since I first met her. She's finally getting taller. Her interests aren't that of a pre-schooler anymore. I can actually read what she writes now. Her grades are amazing and she loves school. That in itself is a miracle!
I very, very vividly remember the moment I met Sydney. Kendall and I were picking her up from her babysitter after work one day in June. He had told her about me only the night before so she wouldn't get too worked up about it. I was so scared that she was going to hate me. I was nervous about how she would act because Kendall had told me about all of the problems that they were going through at the time. But that day was wonderful. Kendall went to get her and she came running to the car ahead of him. She was so excited and at that moment I thought I could handle this. The package of Sydney and all that comes with her.
Am I happy to be Sydney's mom? I can't imagine being anything else. It's been a crazy, wonderful 3+ years since the day I met her and I wouldn't trade this time for the sun and the moon.
Do I struggle being Sydney's mom? Absolutely. There are days I struggle being Eli's mom and Isaac's mom too.
Oh Sydney, if you forget everything I have ever said to you, I hope you remember how much I love and care about you. How much I want you to be successful and "normal" and have friends and have fun. You have never been a step-daughter to me, you have always been my daughter. Some days you are more of your dad's child than mine, but the same goes for the boys ;) You are loved and it's ok to love back.
I very, very vividly remember the moment I met Sydney. Kendall and I were picking her up from her babysitter after work one day in June. He had told her about me only the night before so she wouldn't get too worked up about it. I was so scared that she was going to hate me. I was nervous about how she would act because Kendall had told me about all of the problems that they were going through at the time. But that day was wonderful. Kendall went to get her and she came running to the car ahead of him. She was so excited and at that moment I thought I could handle this. The package of Sydney and all that comes with her.
Am I happy to be Sydney's mom? I can't imagine being anything else. It's been a crazy, wonderful 3+ years since the day I met her and I wouldn't trade this time for the sun and the moon.
Do I struggle being Sydney's mom? Absolutely. There are days I struggle being Eli's mom and Isaac's mom too.
Oh Sydney, if you forget everything I have ever said to you, I hope you remember how much I love and care about you. How much I want you to be successful and "normal" and have friends and have fun. You have never been a step-daughter to me, you have always been my daughter. Some days you are more of your dad's child than mine, but the same goes for the boys ;) You are loved and it's ok to love back.
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